Forgetfulness

Forgetfulness is a bitch!!! When you forget shit it can mean a world of trouble, but I love remember shit that no one else remember that is the best feeling in the world. That is pretty random I know but I love being random because no one ever knows what you are thinking???? Is that bad??? I don't know but this whole blog is just a bunch of B.S. why is it because I forgot what I was I going to blog about!! LOL

I love the future

I love the future because of its uncertainty, I know to a lot of people who think that uncertainty is a bad thing. I feel like it is all that you make of it because if you view it as bad it is always going to turn out bad so even if things don't always go your way you can always still look on the bright side, even if there is no bright side if you just reach up no matter if you see anything up there you just reach and stretch as far as you can. The hope of tomorrow is the only thing that keeps me going for today because if you had an awful day today you can only hope that tomorrow will be a better day for you. If it isn't just keep on hoping and sooner than later that better day will come and save you out of your darkness, but if you really think about bout it what is a good day without a bad day if you had all good days you forget the meaning of a good day and if you only bad day you would forget the mean of a bad and just feel like a crap. So, without one or the other life wouldn't be the same. Or would it?

Talking shit

Why is it always so fun talking shit when you are drinking? Idk it is just so fun =), it doesn't have to be you are talking shit to fight, but just to have a good time. Also, why when you drink you also have to find someone to lean on and I don't know about you but I like leaning on girls??? It is just so fun to me?!?!? Another thing is if I drink certain thing like Everclear for some reason I get really loud and I will become a ladies' man even more so then usual LOL! One of the best memories of school was one time I had came back from drinking like 7 or 8 beer so that this point I'm really feeling good; then one of my friends had some Everclear I probably got about 2 or 3 shots in a mixed drink and by the time I got to the end of that ONE solo cup I don't remember a thing and then pictures like this started to show up!!!!

So the message kids, Drink but stay the hell away from Everclear!!!!!!

Miss U

I'm missing you; I miss you so much right now. Without you I don't know what to do, everyday miss you more and more, and everything that came with you. I miss the environment around you the time I used to spend with and around you all of this is talking about is school I miss all my friends all the fun I use to have down there. Aug 10 needs to hurry up!!!!!!

Family

What does family mean to you? Well to me it means a bunch of low-life sons of a bitch that don't want do to do anything, but bring you down when you need help most of all. It is three people in this house Me, my piece of shit brother and my appeasing mother. My piece of shit brother is so fucking… I don't know how to finish that sentence because I get some jealousy from him also his is fucking Jesus Christ around here because nothing he can say or do is wrong in my mother's eyes. Now to her she is so freaking frustrating, whenever I try to talk to her about anything it go in one ear and out the other unless it is something juicy, then she remembers some of the story and then lies to complete the rest, then she goes a run tell my stupid ass brother who knows everything then he wants to come give me a lecture about when he was young he had to do a bunch of bullshit that doesn't even matter and according to both of them don't anybody do anything else around here but them. So, what I want to know is what I did to GOD to make him curse me with this awful family if, I died tomorrow I would write out before I died make sure none of those asshole show up to my funeral and would give my health insurance to split between my best friend and these greedy fuckers don't get one red cent and I would probably get someone to burn up the house with or without them in it to make them feel some of the pain they caused me. Now that I have said my peace I feel so much better I still hope they get all what is coming to them ^_^!!!!!!

Sleep

The other night when I was getting ready to go to sleep I was sort of falling asleep and it I turned over and I wasn't sleepy any more I think I just found a way to wake yourself out of sleep. It was just so weird, because I felt me being sleep but then I jumped up and moved and all of a sudden I wasn't sleepy any more. That was just so funny that happened!!!

Hello Today

Today was been a very good day unlike yesterday, were it started off okay then ended up turning out to be very good, then got extremely worst I was trying to clean my notebook keys. Then I pop them out to clean under them I pop all of them off the ass I tried to put the "j" key on and everything just went wrong on part broke, then I try to glue it and that didn't work know I'm just typing on the bear rubber part and this is so fuck up now I'm going to have to call someone to fix it. That is just another thing I didn't need to spend more money that I don't have. But, I don't worry about it things will be find so it is so much going on and today is just a little sample just keep posted and you'll find out the rest!!! Thanks!!!

Name?

I guess about time I start giving my blogs a name, but I couldn't find a name for this one? Who cares??? Anyways I am so ready for my birthday. I haven't had a cig in a week and my goal is to stop smoking until I get 19, I have been able to buy from damn near anybody, but I'm going to wait until it is official and I can show my id and get them also when I have my first cigs on my birthday the buzz will be out if this world!!! It is so funny when you smoke you will always have something to do when there is nothing going on, well I guess I'll go out for a smoke, but when you just abruptly stop you, well I guess me, don't really miss the nicotine but I miss having something to do when there is nothing to do. It'll look pretty weird just going outside standing and not doing anything… So, July 17 hurry up and come on!!!

June 14, 2008

I am really tired!!! Not physically tired but mentally, I have been looking for a job now for almost a month. I have fill out over 15 applications and went to at least 3 interviews and nothing not a call back, not anything just nothing… What is it pretty much everyone around me as one and they will post on facebook that they are looking for a job on Monday and by Wednesday they are posting that they start work on the next Monday; I'm like wtf is it something I'm saying on it or is it my handwriting… wait a min. I did the application online, so how in the hell they know about my handwriting. Or, is it my answers to the question well it is only 2 answers yes or no and the question is: If you see someone stealing do you call the police? And I put Yes, so I guess they don't want snitch on the job??? So, what do I have to do to get a job, put at the bottom of it "Will work for Food" and then once I get the job try to negotiate 4.50/hr? which is way below minimal wage?? Just to get a paycheck every week or bi-weekly whatever the case maybe. What do I have to do to get a job????? PLEASE TELL ME!!!!

June 13, 2008

Randomness, today has been a slow day because this is the only weekday I don't have to go to school. I don't mind going to a community college, but this is nowhere as near as fun as Alabama. At Alabama we had parties and cool people and also no parents, now that I'm at home going to college it is nowhere near as fun because you can't come in the house drunk as shit at 5 in the afternoon and no one will say anything to you. At Alabama you could stay on campus and not have to burn gas to go to class, but now I have to drive to school Mon.-Thurs. and that is so freaking aggravating. Now, that I have quit smoking until my 19 birthday, and that seems like a lifetime away not because I'm happy to get older, but I'm ready for a smoke again. Damn July 17 Hurry up!!!!

June 12, 2008

Today was a hard day to say the least, a lot of things going on, but anyways that is not the point of today's topic. Last night I was aim with I good friend and he was talking about a situation that happen to him, I won't really go into of it, but it has to do with him being a white person and the situation had something to with some black people. I he was asking don't I feel ashamed, and I told him that, "No, I don't because I don't let others make or define me." Then I told him "If you get burned by a stove do you stop eating cooked food?" Then I really started to think about what I said, do a lot of people get burned by a "stove" and stop eating "cooked food"? I think people who have the attitude that all races act like their stereotypes. I mean I do know white people who play computer games and some that are nerdy and awkward and some who are cool as shit. On the other hand I know black people that gangbang, some that do all the black stereotype, but that doesn't mean that is all that defines them because some of the gangbanger are smarter than some most people in college. The thing that gets under my skin it that fact that most people who say they hate any other races has never had any interaction with them and all they go off of is what they see on TV and what they hear and never try to see if that is the truth or not. So, I ask anyone who reads this to least try to meet one person a different race and try to get some insight on their life and give them some insight of yours. {What could I hurt?}

Today 06-11-08

I'm listening to John Mayer-Say and I'm thinking do we ever say what we need to say... I always try to but what if what you have to say will hurt someone you love; what do you say then? Or what if saying what you need to say is not how you really feel? That is going to be my test of this week is to be say what I feel and to always speak the truth or will that be too much for anyone can stand because everyone love to hear a good lie every now and again, asking you have you lost weight and you know you have gained 5lb. So, do really love the truth or do we just like the thought of us being everything we want to be tall, skinny, and the most attractive person on this side of Earth, even though you know it's not the truth, we would all like to think so wouldn't we? Well these are just my thought you can take them as a grain of salt or how you want to.